For all you critics out there wondering just what the hell “Burgers” and the like are popping up in Confessions Of A Trannie Rockstar “MUSIC blog”? http://confessionsofatrannierockstar.tumblr.com
Well its simple.
Confession : No matter how Gorgeous it may make me look on stage -
This Bitch can’t sing on an empty stomach!
Confessions Of A Trannie Rockstar’s tummy was screaming hungry ( to match my size zero Luck Brand Charlie Skinny Jeans I wore that night) as I weaved my way through the hotness of hipster Gay and Questioning Bois flooding the streets of Williamsburg Brooklyn last Friday night
A last minute invite to meet a few close friends at this popular Wburg eatery proved to be the most pleasant of surprises.
The Burger Guru - 98 Berry Street (corner of North 8th ) http://theburgerguru.com
Open 7 days 11am - 11pm Mon. - Thurs. 11am -12am Fri - Sun
The Burger Guru is more than an organic (aka animal empathy = good karma and better tasting - chemical free food) bar restaurant. The Burger Guru is FUN!
The decor is familiar (flat screens / exposed brick) with some fun unique original stuff (golden statues - outdoor garage patio - vintage Monroe movie promo stuff in the clean bath room)
The food presentation (cafeteria style metal silver trays) only adds to the fun!
As a born Brooklynite - I can assure you that the once commonplace tradition of great food & drink, engaging hospitality and superb service lives on at The Burger Guru.
ConfessionsOfATrannieRockstar.tumblr.com - April 2013
CONFESSIONS RATING: FIVE PUMP POINTS !
A Confessions Of A Trannie Rockstar Standout Salute goes out to:
Kelsey M. Thomas: (Aspiring artist / Waitstaff) - Smart, Radiant, Genuine & Super Attentive
Kendrick Greer: (Manager / Host - Established Astrologer & Spiritualist) - Warm , Engaging, True Customer Service Enthusiast Get your Astro Chart done by him onsite he’s amazing!
New Orleans native, A- list hit ghostwriter (Justin Bieber, Brandy, Jay-Z , John Legend), and alternative Hip-Hop collective member of OFWGKTA, “Christopher Francis Ocean” stage name Frank Ocean did everything right.
By “right” - I refer to his career success in breaking through what is probably, next to alligator wrestling, one of the most dangerous careers anyone bold enough to claim possible bisexuality can embark on; a music career in “No Homo” Hip-Hop. In fact, “Hip-Hop,” with its 43-year successful track record and highly uncommon for a sub culture music genre, is still referred to and proudly credited even today, almost 50 years later, as “No Homo.”
Translation, the Hip-Hop community is anti-Gay. Despite the well-guarded, extremely hypocritical, music industry, glass brick wall of silence, Frank Ocean wrestled the alligator. via his personal Tumblr Blog, http://FrankOcean.tumblr.com, Frank Ocean, came out by admitting a former first love for someone of the same sex. Interestingly enough reputed, “No Homo,” Odd Future major domo, “Tyler the Creator,” was one of the first to support Mr. Ocean. Tyler tweeted in his authentic way, “My big brother finally f—-ing did that. Proud of that n—-a cause I know that sh— is difficult or whatever.” Def Jam Records Co –Founder Russell Simmons declared Ocean’s actions as courageous and honest. Mr. Simmons also went on to write, “Today is a big day for hip-hop. It is a day that will define who we really are.”
Let me share this, as an openly Gay Pop Rock singer songwriter, when I first heard the news about Frank Ocean, I went in “high alert /critical mode.” For over 10 years, through blood sweat, tears, tremendous bigotry and hatred, I independently gathered the love and loyalty of over 25k worldwide multi diverse music fans.
As someone musically representative of 25k true music lovers both Gay and Straight. I needed to get to a clearer truth on a personal level about him. I needed to find out if his “coming out” announcement was part of an advanced market, profit driven, slick ad campaign engineered to boost sales. Had Frank Ocean truly arrived at a point of truth? Luckily for me, my rage against ( “the machine” ) aka music industry’s blatant homophobia over the years has alchemized into multi positions as an indie record label owner, and former magazine COO/Sales and Marketing Director for the groundbreaking, multi- cultural publication, Hot Stepz Magazine.
As an investigative journalist, I decided to deploy my mental utility belt to respectful research before passing judgment. A courtesy I feel the Hip-Hop music community has yet to extend to its LGBQT musical Brothers and Sisters. Happily, what I found in Frank Ocean is a talented (his music chart and song writing success speaks for itself, just ask Beyonce!), earnest man, who’s been walking his talk as a noted industry professional almost immediately since his arrival in LA in 2005.
I might add, he didn’t float in on raft of industry referrals hailing him as the *hit, but as a New Orleans dream driven hopeful, fighter and survivor of the now legendary devastation of Hurricane Katrina. His beloved hometown music studio left ravaged and looted forcing him to go elsewhere to pursue his music dreams.
So as a marketing director, I can tell you that Frank Ocean’s coming out as a publicity stunt is highly unlikely. No advanced marketing team would “bank” on a non –existent anti-Gay Hip-Hop/R&B consumer to stage two, launch an artist such as Frank Ocean.
Even with his considerable chart success for “Novacane” and his respected A-List circle of ghost writing clientele, it would have been disastrous to do so. So to me, a diehard LGBQT music making veteran who proudly claimed an international cross genre/cross sexual fan base this made Frank Ocean a real revolutionary. At his level, he could have easily continued to prosper from his successful song writing credits - but artistically - he felt he would be letting himself down. I applaud him for this. In hindsight, his decision to “come out” cost him commercially, as endorsements dropped and the “heat” of bigotry and hatred rose up around him and his already well respected and established musical career.
To me, music is a vehicle of expression relative to experiences/situations largely influenced by events both personal and environmental. As musical artists, I think we have a choice to honor our gifts conscientiously. The more successful of us are divided into two camps.
One camp is conscientious, entertaining and balanced rewarded by a world of luxury respect and concern for humanity. The other camp decides to reject conscientiousness, spiritual awareness. As a result, they are non-progressive spirits artistically stuck with their feet dangling from a fractured Ferris wheel of non-progressive energy. Camp two can be as talented as camp one and just as financially successful, but at a high cost spiritually and hopefully with a much shorter shelf life. The karma of the music industry overall sucks and I feel Hip-Hop stands out in this because of its community choosing to ignore conscientiously needed change in a lot of areas beyond its blatant homophobia.
Homophobia has been with Hip-Hop since its very first record releases. I’m old enough to bare witness to this and I, ignorantly 43 years ago, purchased most of those musically great early Hip-Hop artists’ tracks that were lyrically spitting in my face, as I foolishly snapped fingers pop locking in idiotic bliss!
Needless to say, I grew up, in addition to “coming out’ at the age of 17, bravely facing the wrath the world had in store for me. Musically, I expected Hip-Hop to do the same, “Grow Up;” that is, not to stay stuck riding the Ferris wheel of ignorance. Musically speaking, when it comes to homosexuals, Hip-Hop, known for its bad ass sub culture rep, seems to have decided to institutionalize hate selling out another community in exchange for the price of a record.
As a black child growing up in the school yards of Fort Greene, Bushwick and Crown Heights, where a lot of original east coast Hip-Hop culture was first created back in the 70’s and 80’s, I feel I have a right to do a serious “call out” on Hip-Hop and ask the community what happened to the growth? Why am I walking these same NY streets still hearing kids and adults spitting anti-Gay hate lyrics, and shouting out across the same streets to each, let’s go kill some homos as a recreation past time, with some of the most notorious Hip-Hop music hate mongers’ music blaring in the background?!
Legendary 80’S Hip Hop Group “Furious Five”.
Realistically, my Hip-Hop music growth expectations were not and are not based on harmonic pipe dreams, in fact, quite the opposite. As I grew up, I became more aware, either through direct personal contact or fact based information, that a huge portion of the Hip-Hop music community: the producers, singers and fans are on the DL (down low/ secretly Gay) and the rewards for their behavior (luxury, fame) is costing the LGBQT community lives. The more hate you perpetrate, the more hate you create. Hate is a form of expression that can often times signify fear and ignorance of the unknown and, in this case, Hip-Hop music includes fear of the yet to be revealed.
If Hip-Hop hadn’t chosen to “Skip class” over the years, when it comes to basic respect for humanity, it would be a simple case of live and let live.
As it should be in the case with Frank Ocean and the hundreds, maybe thousands of Out and Proud LGBQT Hip Hop/R & B music performers and professionals who are stepping into the spotlight.
To the still largely closeted LGBQT / Anti -Gay Hip-Hop community- I say “grow up”. Don’t carry the hate weight of your musical forefathers. Expand yourself and instead of being the snarling dog viciously guarding the revenue food bowl- look around you.
Your Hip Hop/R& B music family is growing.
Times have changed in 43 years; you can still guard your bowl (sell your music) without the attack. Embracing hatred has its cost. Intelligence beacons you to evolve.
Eventually as humanity continues to progress the idolatry and promotion of hate inspired music will weaken the Hip-Hop industry. In other words, if the Hip-Hop community, in particular the “No Homo Crew”, doesn’t self-reflect on the need to promote hate through music, one day they could be snarling over an empty bowl.
PHOTO:OPENLY GAY HIP HOP STAR DEADLEEE
LGBQT people are not the enemy of the Hip-Hop community (we too have been there working and performing since the beginning) hate and selfish ignorance is. Forty-three years later, after the birth of Hip-Hop, there is a new sub music culture on the rise – it’s called human rights. You really shouldn’t have to declare what you know yourself not to be.
Get rid of “NO -HOMO” and just do you.
Icon Or Tragedy?
by Clarence “Scandelle” Johnson
What becomes a legend most?
Is it the glamorous mystique of a perfectly mascara- eye lid pose burning seductively back at you from an autographed 8x10 glossy?
Perhaps it may have been the retina blinding glow from that beaded one of a kind haute couture gown elegantly worn during a treasured last concert performance?
Maybe - just maybe - it might have been her unearthly beauty that somehow never seemed to truly fade even during her most challenging bouts of massive self destruction?
Without question-could it had simply just been “the voice”?!
A voice so powerful it struck undeniable respect even in the hearts of the most vicious of critics?
A talent so organically unique it will forever stand as sure as a bible testament that this truly was and will always be considered one of the greatest singers the world has ever known.
These questions- by paradox - leap forward as truth when I tearfully stopped to consider ” what exactly did become this legend most?” - post Whitney Houston.
Whitney Houston the child was born out of a royal music bloodline as the second daughter of the great Cissie Houston and musician vocalist father John Russell Houston.
It was surrounding the day of her televised homecoming/ funeral service that like millions of others around the world that day- I began to reminisce - when did this love affair begin? ” Whitney and I”?
As with all great Icons at the time of their deaths it gets personal - fast.
And if you truly loved them - as I surely did with Whitney- disappointments and judgements fly out the window.
And we are left only each of us in kind with sadness and reflective joy. For like any good love affair in its seeming demise- you immediately reach back for the memories .
Here is one fan’s story
It definitely wasn’t love at first sight and I’m sure if the opportunity were there the feelings would have been mutual!
You see - in the 1980s I was an angry Gay closeted teenage rebel. Brown skin, platinum blonde Mohawk, androgynous punk pop Emo vampire obsessed wild child. Running from the pain of an abusive household and a repressive ghetto wasteland dressed 24 -7 in black attire from head to toe. Just in case you stupidly missed my point!
And as a child of Fort Greene’s Walt Whitman projects few peeps did - trust!
Whitney’s 1980 musical debut almost passed me by with it’s air of precision like “subtle sophistication” ( I was anything but back then- not much more so now I suppose) but I certainly didn’t see myself as having been sucked into the masterful marketing magic of the legendary music giant Clive Davis. At least so I thought.
Was Whitney Houston blessed by this representation? That depends on who you talk to. All I know is when I first laid eyes on her- via her legendary album debut entitled “WHITNEY HOUSTON” that cover photo African Goddess framed in seductively hunger inducing peach - successfully debunked the spell of the uber punk pop princesses I loving submitted to back in those days.
Some of whom I still hold special reverence for. Those “Kaleidoscope Pop Diva predecessors to today’s Anime Plastic replicas ala Katy Perry. Back then- it was all about Pat Benatar, Suioxes and The Banshees and The great Annie Lennox (Eurythmics Era) were hard acts to compete with for this glass chewing anarchical 80s punk bitch boy.
In Whitney’s case - appearance wise - she wore less makeup- less attitude -no apparent shock value. Did I spend money on her music right away? No. It definitely wasn’t love at first sight back then. Stupid young fool that I was - I didn’t realize that Whitney / Clive Davis and company were introducing us all to a new “anarchy”. Like it or not a seed had been planted. Clive Davis - you still get props from me on this one!
It wasn’t until I started chasing Boys ( that’s right Boys- keep reading you have my permission to gag later) that I kept bumping into Whitney everywhere!
After all - Whitney is romance incarnate! All the white boys adored her. And I adored them. And it was the dawn of the music video! Every bar nightclub, cafe and car wash had screens back then!!!
By loving Whitney- it was definitely the beginning a cross over wet dream. Colorless fast additive manufactured Pop music by design- wrapped in exciting organic vocal power at its finest. Beneath all the bubble gum chocolaty goodness was a Diva just bursting to come out. Whitney and Me I suppose! We become the perfect couple.
Her organic rich voice was the ideal match that fused together my soft but well guarded fashion armored romantic heart.. So we became great friends Whitney and I - through her music / her voice - her vulnerable but powerful spirit. We ran the New York night scene together hand in hand.
I still listen - to this very day -to remember fondly her debut album throughout all of its various music industry product transformations. ( the tape cassette turned white from overplay- the vinyl album played with such reckless enthusiasm- it got terminally needle stabbed as if an angry cat accidentally jumped on the turntable - the CD had to be replaced three times!
Whitney’s music over the years is my Linus Blanket. I take it everywhere. And when no physical product is available - there she is in my heart - my spirit. And I remember all the words just as she sung them.
Her hit records - all serve as emotional touchstones for almost half a lifetime of memories.
That’s longer than most of you readers have been alive! Recognize! Research! Respect!
Every song represents a milestone - the way we used to dress - where we lived - who we loved at the time and how we felt after the love died - Whitney was even there to help you pick pick up the pieces!! “It’s Not Right - But It’s Ok”. OK??!!!
Did I give back? Should we? Beyond the price of a cd or download? Absolutely digitally - we can and should give back by way of our letters, thoughts, love and prayers. I cringed when she married Bobby Brown - I danced when she had little Bobbie Christina - cheered every Grammy win - savored every movie role - and wept openly and long term when she passed away. The life of a person in this world is hard enough - the life of an ICON even harder.
If you don’t believe me -just think a minute about the Whitney Houston story and ask yourself this. Is it fair to blindly idolize someone without reminding yourself that they are also at the core - as human as you or I?
Lesson learned for me is when it comes to music superstars or anyone in the realm of entertainment super stardom - save the blind idol worship for the Deity that won’t fall short of the prize. That would be any one human no matter how fabulous they look or sound or both!
I love Whitney Houston because she lived her life scars and all while making it a point to make others happy using the most precious gift she had. Her only mistake was her human condition. Her inability to love herself a fraction as much as she was adored by the masses. Peel back her infamous tough girl exterior and you can plainly see this.
Her story is both a miracle and a lesson to those brave enough - talented enough and lucky enough to reach for the stars and actually shine brighter than any human has a right to..
What really becomes a legend most? In Whitney’s case- it was her truth-even that which was sacredly guarded . Her life for all to see - the beauty - the mistakes - the legacy – the voice - the love.
Whitney is now elemental. Like warm sunshine on your face in the dead of winter or a cool waterfall mist on your skin in the middle of a hot summer day.
This is one fan’s story. A love affair with his Icon.-
Whitney Houston - Icon or Tragedy? I say this - Whitney Houston rest in peace “I Will Always Love You” too. Scars and all. Thank you for being my friend. And good friends are still very hard to find. There will never be another quite as lovely as you.
LADYBOI “HALFWAY TO DAWN” available today on iTunes!
A portion from this important record goes to benefit The Brandon Bitner Scholarship Fund. http://www.brandonbitner.com
I’M BACK BITCHES!
And yea- for all yall wondering what happened to my partnership with HSM / Hot Stepz Magazine - let’s that say that commonsense and reason paved the way for progress in the end.
PHOTO CREDIT: JASON CHEN
I certainly have no regrets gaining the valuable experience - and making the many new acquaintances over the past 3 years. ( yes - its been that long since I’ve cut a record or posted a blog here) but the publishing world is a demanding one.
A little too demanding it seemed and I’m lucky to have been partners with an amazing woman / CEO who cared enough to know when to “stop the madness” shoot up a flare- and wait for the troops to arrive and take HER new baby (wink wink to CEO) to safety.
When I last checked - I was alive and a passenger in the life boat.
Stay tuned for updates!
But seriously - thank you HSM for making me a smarter spirit! I look forward to your inevitable joyous rebirth.
MAGAZINE COVER DESIGN BY KRIS KRAJEWSKI
BACK TO MUSIC!
I’m really thrilled to announce a number of new music projects awaiting me as singer songwriter producer SCANDELLE.
And for some of you loyal SCANDELLE friends /fans out there willing to forgive me for being away soo long - that didn’t catch my most recent releases here they are below all of which are available today for purchase via iTunes!
Two of which are co produced as LADYBOI with myself and the fantastic producer and good friend LEV CHOUBINE
Please show your LOVE!
"BETTER KNOW" by Ladyboi
This is my marriage / equal rights anthem inspired by all the hate mongers that assembled here (NYC) and nationwide to protest a simple right to love.
Remember - GAYS are human beings with rights both spiritual and soon to be legal worldwide.
Just like the worldwide Afro - American / Person Of Color Civil rights still being fought depending on where you look - we ( LGBQT Community) will go in the history books as being victorious!
HEAR THE ENTIRE SONG HERE ON YOUTUBE!
BUY IT ON AMAZON.COM TODAY!
PHOTO CREDIT : MICHAEL WAKEFIELD
The second song for your listening pleasure is also a release off my new label Juice Records!
This track is one that I hold dearest to my heart . Inspired buy the bullied related suicide death of little 14 year old Brandon Bitner.
'HALFWAY TO DAWN” goes right to the spirit.
HALFWAY TO DAWN IS BOTH A TRIBUTE AND A POWERFUL ANTHEM OF HOPE FOR ANYONE IN EMOTIONAL PAIN.
THIS SONG SERVES AS A BEACON OF LIGHT ON THE OFTEN TIME DARK ROADWAYS OF LIFE .
A PORTION OF THE SALES PROCEEDS GOES DIRECTLY TO THE BRANDON BITNER SCHOLARSHIP FUND - please visit them here:
YOU CAN WATCH THIS IMPORTANT MUSIC VIDEO HERE :
DIRECTED BY : TAYLOR PERRY CLARK
FILMED AT FACTORY STUDIOS BROOKLYN COURTESY CARRIE WHITE STARRING LADYBOI THE BAND (SCANDELLE & LEV CHOUBINE)
BUY IT TODAY ON iTUNES:
AND HERE IT IS !!
I’M HAPPY TO BE BLACK, BACK AND MORE READY THAN EVER BEFORE!
STAY TUNED FOR MORE EXCITING MUSIC REVIEWS - CELEBRITY INTERVIEWS AND TRANNIE ROCKSTAR CONFESSION !